'm Marta. I have 38 years of age. A 11 year old son is my life. When he was 26 years and was involved emotionally with the father of my child, I was pregnant at the wrong time because the relationship did not allow for more. For when I told him the news to the father of my son he no longer wanted anything as this into something else. It was a cold shower for me. I never thought about abortion but from the beginning I thought the humiliation of being the mother of a fatherless child!
humiliation I suffered a lot for this big. Asked God to somehow make it back but nothing. Not a phone call. Were 9 months of pain for my monstrous pride was very, very badly hurt ... I walked away from my friends and I did not count. Only communicated the situation to my friends. I lived with my brothers. At that time God had made a very special person in my way: Oilda, now is the godmother of my son. Fill Oilda addressed all the love I needed: I looked to for me to be discovered every day to God.
humiliation I suffered a lot for this big. Asked God to somehow make it back but nothing. Not a phone call. Were 9 months of pain for my monstrous pride was very, very badly hurt ... I walked away from my friends and I did not count. Only communicated the situation to my friends. I lived with my brothers. At that time God had made a very special person in my way: Oilda, now is the godmother of my son. Fill Oilda addressed all the love I needed: I looked to for me to be discovered every day to God.
Throughout my pregnancy I attended many masses looking for healing. Oilda with me as often as I could and I joined his family. I adopted as a spiritual daughter. She later became my sponsor for confirmation. I recently confirmed at 30 years of age.
My pregnancy was very quiet despite the circumstances. The last days of pregnancy were filled with anxiety, knowing full well that he was taking responsibility and I was not prepared to the same. Had many fears of economic hardship, not knowing how to educate, to fail in this great challenge that I expected and it was inescapable, unavoidable, unexpected.
My son went very well and came to the world a 05Mayo1995. His name is Jose Sebastian. My sister chose the name of Sebastian and I put the name of Joseph in honor of San Jose because I wanted my son to grow up under the protection of San Jose.
My son was born healthy, whole and filled a void in my life. When my son was by birthday, the father reappears on the scene. I asked if I wanted to know my son and I said "yes" but only had his image as a "UNCLE." You know what? This man just wanted to come to me to use me again. Of course it was the last time I saw him in my life.
My life was dedicated to my son and my spiritual growth. What have I done all this time? I had no relationship with any man. It was not my priority because I knew I needed a lot of healing inside before getting involved emotionally with any man. I had always found the wrong man because I needed inner healing. That search is in charge God. I do not concern myself. I take care of what I must be: MY RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD.
Labour, do gymnastics, I see my son, I read texts that enrich me spiritually, attend prayer groups, I go to church as often as possible, attend Bible courses and spiritual formation, I together with my brothers, uncles, cousins, friends. God has entrusted to organize my life so I do not feel alone anymore.
Every day I ask God to give me wisdom, intelligence, strength, determination to educate and train my child by their laws and enseñanzas.Deseo that my son is a knowledgeable man of God, who has always been present in his life .
know I've learned from it? "God writes straight with crooked lines," I think it's St. Teresa of Jesus. That the priority in my life must be God. He is putting the right people at the right time for us to save. marta_bm2002@yahoo.com.mx
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